I’ve been generally a bit down today, for the main reason that I really hit home to day that none of my good friends are in ANY of my classes. Fia and Livi are in my form which is cool but I hardly get to see everyone else.
I suppose I shouldn’t complain too much about my day, in places it was good. I got jabbed against Cervical Cancer which considering the possible alternative is pretty awesome and I’ve been selective to be interviewed for the position of Managing Director for one of the school’s Young Enterprise companies.
Despite all of this I still kind of bored and lost without my friends, and I also feel kind of bottled up so I thought I’d tell you my secrets, because you’re my friends.
I actually wrote this list about 5 or so months ago when that “25 Things” Meme was going around facebook but then didn’t have the nerve to put it up, but now I think I have the courage to put it here. I warn you some of it’s a bit old and so not so relevent anymore but I’ll try and make that clear with annotations in italics like this.
1. I’ve never written a Facebook Note before and it took me a while to work out how to do it. I still haven’t ever actually published a facebook note.
2.Whenever my dad asks me if I want anything when he goes shopping I always ask for smarties. Recently he’s found that hardly anywhere apart from our local co-op sells smarties anymore, so he stocked up so that he can magically produce a packet whenever he goes to the shops. He doesn’t know that I found the stash in his desk draw. I wish I hadn’t found it so it remained secret and magical. The secret stash still exists.
3. I’ve told a number of people that I ate a whole pencil for a dare. This isn’t true. I’ve eaten many whole pencils, out of choice, I’ve developed some weird habit and now I find it really hard to keep hold of pencils. Still the case.
4.I still haven’t got around to uploading Suga’s Fall Out Boy CD to my computer even though I’ve had it for 18 days now. Its one of several things I’m putting off doing for no apparent reason. I did actually get round to doing that not that long after I wrote this.
5. I buy Doctor Who Adventures magazine every week, even though it’s meant for 7-11 year olds. I like it when the free gift is stickers. Nowadays I don’t get it so much because there isn’t any Doctor Who actually on but my Mum usually gets me a copy if I’m feeling down.
6. I have to put “Do Something Creative” on my To Do list every now and then or I get stressed. I no longer have a proper to do list but I do lots of drawing now.
7. I don’t like it when people choose the date of their birthday as their favourite number. I don’t know why. Actually I think I do know why, I think it’s because it shows a lack of imagination.
8. I have an irrational fear of death. Although not my own. I’m not scared of anything else because I can find logical reasons not to be. This is still very much true, the summer before year 8 my Grandma died whilst I was away from home without my parents and so now I’m scared of coming home from trips alone to find that someone else has died in my absence.
9.I talk to myself in mirrors as if I’m watching myself vlogging on youtube I even show the mirror random things that are around me as if someone’s watching. Erm.. yeh… I still do this.
10. I only really developed my love for Harry Potter about a month AFTER the last book came out. I wanted to be part of the hype. It makes me feel kind of like a cheater actually.
11. I don’t understand why sometimes I just can’t spell things. I make out like it’s some kind of joke that I’m the worst speller in the year or whatever but I actually find it really embarrassing, annoying and a real encumbrance.
12. I made two spelling mistakes in point 11 and felt really pissed off by the red squiggly lines. I think it was embarrassing and encumbrance that I got wrong and I had to look and check them again this time round.
13. I correct people’s grammar automatically because my mum has been correcting mine since I learnt to talk. And it drives me insane.
14. I barely ever speak to anyone from my primary school anymore even my old best friend who quite literally lives around the corner from me. I only sometimes wish that I did though.
15. I accidentally wrote that I was 16 in my diary entry about Snow Day when I don’t stop being 15 for another 2 weeks. I didn’t even realise I’d done it until I read it back a couple of days ago. Woah, maybe this list is from longer ago tan I thought… anyway, I just felt 16 for quite a long time before i was.
16. Nearly all of the books I’ve read in the past year and a bit have been recommended to me by he same person. And she doesn’t even know she’s recommending them to me. More recently I’ve read alot of books the English department have recommended but I still make a note of the books she recommends.
17. I have 4 major goals in my life right now, Firstly to get all A*s in my GCSEs or at least more than Ben Hodgson so that’s more than 6, Secondly to get all As at A-level, Thirdly to go to Oxford Uni, Fourthly to be on University Challenge. I want to do these four things because I know they are what would make my dad proud. Goal 1. Complete, I may not have got all A*s but I beat Ben Hodgson.
18. I have a big secret, that isn’t really mine. Four of my friends know and I wish two of them didn’t. I think an old friend also knows and I kind of hope she does because even though we don’t talk much anymore I still think she’s cool and nice and stuff. More people know now but a couple of my really good friends don’t, I think I’ll try and tell them tomorrow.
19. I have a secret wish to be a writer but I don’t think I’m good enough at it. Still very much true on both accounts and I will be taking part in NaNoWriMo this November,
20. I had to stop writing a story about my friends and I living in an imaginary flat because I sort of started fancying someone who I wrote about a lot and after he moved in with us I knew it had gone a bit far. Especially seeing as in real life he’s about 10 years older than us. This was embarrassing even when no one knew, in my defense I’d like to say that the character I was writing changed into someone very different to the real life person and quite a bit younger.
21. I have a shoe box full of a whole bunch of random things from the past all of which have a story behind them. For some reason, recently I havn’t added anything to the box.
22. I haven’t been to the cinema in over 14 months. I’ve been three times since I wrote this, twice for the same movie.
23. Even though I know I’ve got the Library prefect post in the bag for Upper Sixth part of me still wants to try out for Head Girl. I’ve never ever been voted into any kind of role. Only about 2 people voted for me for Head Girl in my primary school and I only ever got to be a school councilor in year 2 because the teacher chose rather than us having a vote that happened every other year.
24. I have a mountain of things to do tomorrow and I don’t think all of them are going to get done but I’m afraid to admit this to myself because I know whatever happens it’ll all be alright eventually. I honestly don’t remember how this turned out or even which work it was.
25. I’m really good at telling lies. That sounds like I’m blowing my own trumpet but I don’t always see it as a good thing. I tell lies constantly sometime to amuse sometimes to conceal and sometimes because I can’t be bother with the finer details of the truth. Usually in these sorts of memes I lie a lot. Not one of the facts is a lie, but I think I’d be more comfortable with this list if they all were. Very much still the case.
PostScript Thank god I have a free first thing tomorrow.
